my mind

when i am sick, tired, busy, and stressed, this is what my mind feels like…

blehhh

someone save me…

school

school is stressing me out a lot these days… 

 i’m working a ton just to keep up with the amount of work i’ve been getting in my classes and i’m struggling to keep up.  as much as people always say that it’s not true, i truly think i am not smart in the way school wants me to be smart and that sometimes no matter how much i work towards school, i can’t seem to accomplish what i set out to accomplish.

i guess some people are just wired in certain ways for school and i, for one, am definitely not wired to do these things such as math, science, or write well developed essays that convey a good argument of any sort.

LOUD!

I think all of you finally deserve an update here after my many month sabbath

Those of you who were at AMPLIFY: LIVE. LOVE. LOUD retreat know that I did a energetic and “powerful” speech sort of thing on the last day to wrap up the Loud sermon and retreat in general.  As a leader, I prepared so much to make this as best as it could be given the amount of time that I had.  I constantly rewrote and re-edited my speech over and over again in efforts to best portray LOUD so that students would be affected in some way.

paranormal activities

dude, that movie was the best shizz ever!

Just kidding, I didn’t watch it, but everybody says it’s good.  No plans to go watch it though.  Anyway, you’ll see why this entry is titled this.

So I was taking a showering in the nude and my mind was just wandering.  I’m not exactly sure what led to me thinking about ghosts and weird supernatural occurences but that’s where my mind went.  I remember watching shows on tv a lot where they talk about these occurences cuz the Discovery Channel always has them.  I was thinking to myself, “Well, they gotta be real cuz so many people have seen them…  Nahh, it’s probably just God messing around with people and having fun… haha”

And then…

the light in the bathroom started to flicker…

and then it started to kinda pulse between dim and bright…

then on and off

and then… darkness

I was really creeped out… lol  I called my mom to come in and she called my bro to screw in the other light bulbs and none of the lights would turn back on…  It was kinda starting to get in my head, and then I had a revelation, “dude, it’s God messing with me to just let me know that He’s there” and I kinda laughed to myself and then the light came back on because apparently my brother had turned off the light before he tried to screw in the lightbulbs.

Hah…  God, you’re funny

human?

The other day, I was waiting for the bus at school and as I was about to get on the bus, standing next to me was this girl that I knew from a while back from taekwondo and school.

Let me set up the story a little bit by giving some background information.  This girl skipped a grade but is in the same grade as me.  She was one of those awkward/annoying types where they don’t really intentionally be annoying, but their presence is just annoying and stuff after a while.